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I would want the assassin droid, HK-47, from Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic for my BFF; it's got a sense of humor and a badass set of skills for traveling the galaxy.

eating .. .. To Live.

for these six weeks, i am attempting to follow Dr. Joel Fuhrman's guidelines for a Holiday CHallenge. Holiday season begets parties, get-togethers, etc.; food usually accompanies these gatherings, and not very healthy food. High fat, refined flours and sugars, lots of animal protein is usually present. 'Fun' food products. Food products that set off those pleasture and addiction centers of the brain. Take that first bite, close your eyes and say "mmmmmmmhmmmmmmmm"; then wolf down the rest and go back for more, eating until you hate yourself.

Instead, I fill my plate, daily, with:
cooked greens
raw greens
cooked vegetables
raw vegetables
mushrooms and onions
nuts, seeds, whole raw grains
berries, fruit, unsweetened dry fruit
tons and tons of herbs and seasonings like bragg's liquid aminos, nutritional yeast, dulse
i also take a multi-vitamin formulated for women of childbearing age, and vitamin D with magnesium and calcium.
i am drinking only water and green or roobios teas, with a little chocolate here and there
I did great ON Thanksgiving day, we took sautéed brussels sprouts with pecans, shallots, and cranberries; lentil mushroom shepherd's pie with yams; a green bean onion soup (which turned out much better the next day after cooking it in the crock pot 8 hours, whoops); and finely chopped kale and spinach, and hemp seed for sprinkling on top of everything. I also ate some of sister and brother-in-law's roasted yams, turkey (omfg this was good), and light turkey gravy.

Some animal is in our regular diet again, at home, because our dear personal trainer recommended a bit, especially at first, as we begin our weight-training and more intense exercise regimen. Protein reduces soreness, so we are going to buy locally grown and produced lamb, chicken, and whatever else we come across. Wondering where I can find local freshwater fish to eat, probably the wrong time of year, eh? I guess this girl is going to take up fishing; the kids already love it after going a couple times.

I guess I'm writing this because I screwed up big time. I'm going through a very weird emotional time right now, on top of renewed metabolism from exercise; these things make me want to eat, constantly. I've been doing really well keeping it healthy and keeping healthy things only available to myself. Then I had a really bad time on the weekend, emotionally, so I took off in the evening to spend some time by myself away from the house. Sonic, tatertots with barbecue and jalepenos, with star trek streaming on my phone, was like a drive-in theater/restaurant. It was really kind of awesome. I wish I could do that without having awful, greasy, starch bombs. That shit sets something off in my head, and I go cascading into nasty fast food, chips, cheese . . . I have managed to train myself away from sugar, it seems, for the most part. No more urge to buy candy bars or cakes on these binges. Now to rid myself of the desire for salty crunchy things. I just read about someone dehydrating mushrooms to eat like chips. HOLY GUACAMOLE that sounds like a great replacement!

When I eat unhealthfully, it obviously has a negative effect on my health. I become uncomfortable, so I snap and grump a lot more at my family, which makes them feel snappy and grumpy, which makes me unhappy, because I realize I've negatively influenced their emotions. Parenting realization #1: Kids act like their parents (or whomever is raising them), so act effing good.

I want to eat well, be well, act good. I want to do things, like run and jump and play, without feeling like I'm going to barf/have a heart attack/have an asthma attack. When I eat the way described above, truly every day, there isn't space for junk. Between preparing and eating Whole Plant Foods (mainly), I get the energy to jump around all day. When I eat poorly, I just want to sit and watch shows, which makes me want to snack on unhealthy food products. SO! Here I am, committing to write here about my dietary and exercise habits.. Those two cornerstones of happiness through true health. Also positive family interactions, sleep, socializing, creative endeavors, and work.
Balance is possible and I have the means to achieve it. THat's what I need to remind myself when I feel desperation for Doritos.

Speaking of work, I'm going to get to it, I'm taking the van in for a check-up (why doesn't car insurance help pay for maintenance? It's like having emergency room coverage, but not doctor visit coverage. wtf?), at 1:30 so I've got two hours to bust ass 'round here and shower before I go. woot!

first day of school.

i am sitting at the computer, having finally convinced myself to actually sit down to write, instead of starting laundry/dishes/bathroom cleaning/etc. it's a hard pull, to do those things, THEN take a break; however, writing motivation and inspiration don't like to hang on 'til later. it had to be now.

my house is quiet. almost silent. i can actually hear the refrigerator running, and birds outside. it's sort of glorious.

my children are in a place that makes them and me happy, where they are surrounded by peers and adults all excited and happy to be there (okay, maybe not all, but the feeling is great there); where they are safe, and well-cared for. almost complete peace of mind for me. i know exactly how long it takes to walk there, both slowly and at a brisk pace; and so do matthew and rowan. matthew told me this morning that he knows the way home by heart, and could do it by himself. he and i are not quite ready for that yet, but he could find his way home in the zombie apocalypse. (i wonder if they make telescoping baseball bats that would fit in his backpack .. ?)

rowan was ready to start kindergarten. he was excited all morning, and was totally cool right away. i was sort of laughing uncontrollably, to keep myself from crying. i said goodbye to him at least twice, so he would understand that i was leaving, and wouldn't be there. i really hope he's okay today. ugh it's fine, it will turn out great, i know. i need to Let Go and Trust. Okay. Done. there. *deeep breath* . . . . . . .*slowly exhale* wonderful.

yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga yoga

totally let myself get distracted by chatting with matt and downloading podcasts to listen to during the quiet at home working hours. oh well.

anyway. filing paperwork. my first task as new office slave wench. not really slave wench, but you know. menial low level business workings. it's great though, it's how you get started in business, eh? learning from the bottom up. booyah..

but first, to the laundry! *jumps up and flies away*

Jan. 13th, 2010

while my husband was gone on his mondo business trip to D.C., he had with him the electric toothbrush base we share. i missed it, a lot, as i had to use a 'manual' toothbrush again. i was so stricken by grief for The Good Toothbrush that i composed a few haiku to express my sadness.

i can't recall any of them, but i think i'm going to try to use haiku for all of my complaining in the future.

just a wild and crazy gal

ah, classic snl.

anyway. my youngest son has an imaginary friend. it's a bat. as in, flying nocturnal mammal. this bat has parents, that are dead sometimes, but usually just hang out on his bed upstairs (apparently.). . . . lol

i've been getting out a few times lately! yay!

probably going to the anker on monday night, for poetry-ing

i desperately want chocolate or carrot cake and coconut milk.

matthew is loving school, and is in the highest reading group in his class. too bad they had to cut the advanced reading program this year :(

i might possibly have a babysitter. maybe.

went to the first meeting of the social women's group i joined. it was fun, and i got to eat junky food! yay!

yesterday i did absolutely nothing productive, other than finish another graphic novel. i love the library. such goodness.

now i'm cold. woooooo and i need to make some lunch. and finish laundry, and take a shower.

i sort of wish winter would hurry up and get here so i can up the sheets all over the place again and stay warm. blech. but i don't want to be cold! waaaaaahhhh

anyway. it's time to get off of here. curse you, jacob, for introducing me indirectly to kongregate. i love flash games. matthew likes it a lot too. lol

wwwwwhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee oh, the pirate's life for me .. .. well, the married life.


i need new pictures of myself.

it's a sure sign that i haven't been feeling up to par when i haven't taken real pictures of myself for ages. huh. i need to get dressed up and take care of that.

anyway. i decided to turn the radio on right away after breakfast today instead of remembering in the middle of the day that i love our local kmre. rowan likes listening to it with me. boy loves his trumpet music.

first song played was 'isn't it a lovely day?' by ella fitzgerald and louie armstrong. sort of perked me up, you know? first thing in the morning is a bad time for me usually, lol.

i've been knitting up a storm again lately, as well as sewing. thank you hirtzenocker so much for all the yarn and burlap; kids and i have been going nuts with it :D also, in case i never did thank you for it, thank you kythrah for the buttons and thread and stuff! they're awesome and i am much obliged. :D

i've been a bit out of touch lately, with everyone and everything but i think i'm finally pulling myself out of it. hung out with THREE different people last week and the week before. whoa. human contact outside of the people i live with! woohoo! i even went out for drinks one night!


today rowan goes to the dentist for the first time ever. last week he went to the doctor for the first time in like two years. had to get caught up on vaccinations, to my horror. those people are so forceful and won't really take no for an answer. bleh. poor kid screamed. they told me at least seven different times he would need to take kid tylenol for fever and soreness, but he never did break a fever. his behavior for a few days afterward was extremely erratic and nuts, but other than very minor swelling he had no intense reactions. hooray for a healthy boy. i was also told by the doctor to get him flu shot-up. i don't know about that. bellingham doesn't really seem like the type of place this would happen, but sometimes kids get taken away from parents for 'endangerment' or something if they don't get all the doctor-recommended junk. bleh. anyway, boy needs a new toothbrush and i'm curious about the health of his teeth, so to the dentist we go.

time to buckle down and get some serious projects going on. at this point in my life, i need more stimulating things to keep me busy than just organizing the household. sometimes i think about women who do everything i do, with parenting and all, and still hold down a job somewhere or something. i can do more, and i should be doing more. life is a balancing act. it's the third major scene in the cinema of my run-time on earth and it's boring as hell. lol.

oh well time to take stuff back to the library and get a few cans of food at the discount store.


i hope everyone has a happy and productive week. email me and encourage me to do more stuff or ask me to do the same for you. motivation is great with encouragement.

Jul. 20th, 2009

why does the thought of hanging out with actual people piss me off so much?


beware, bragging ahead

so today was matthew's last day of school.

he brought home his report card.

it was fantastic. his reading 'level' doubled this past semester.

he's at grade level standards for some stuff, and exceeds standards for everything else.


goodness gracious i'm so proud.

in other news, thank god the school year is ended. bleh.

lots of fun stuff going on this summer, including a visit from me mum.

woohoo! summer time.


sometimes, it just takes half a bottle of hard cider and a freaking sesame seed bagel with cream cheese to cheer me up.

wooo, meme

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?